You Win Some, You Lose Some

And this week, I did both.

Bad news first: I had a hard time staying on track food wise. I'm really struggling with my hunger. I don't remember being this hungry when I was breastfeeding Kallie, and it's really tough. Thursday night, I ate WAY too much b/c hunger just overtook me (I had 3 big helpings of pasta casserole, a big salad, about 20 crackers with pb and some pudding), and still, after ALL that food, I was HUNGRY. Not just, meh, I could eat, but wow, I'm starving! That was about 45 minutes after eating everything, and then I just got hungrier and hungrier. I'm not totally sure what to do about it, but I need to figure something out!

Good news (the wins!): I started running this week! It was only once, but it was awesome! I've missed running so much! I had convinced myself that I was too fat to run, and was going to wait another 10-15 lbs to start. But then, a good song came on my ipod (I was doing my 5K walk) and I just started running! It's insane how painful and pathetic it was, but I did it, and I'm excited to keep doing it!

My other win, is that I'm becoming much more thoughtful about strategy and issues that are holding me back from where I want to be. I had a great talk with my friend Kat (who lost about 70 lbs a few years ago and has maintained a healthy weight since then!) about recognizing my weaknesses and making a plan to overcome them. Lyndon and I have an evening of laundry folding and talking planned, and since I'll definitely need him on board for my new strategy to work, I'll give you a more detailed recap next week.

I'm not going to my weigh-in tomorrow b/c I have a church conference all morning (which I'm so pumped for, it's Beth Moore!!!), but next week I'll definitely be going!

One big lesson I learned this week, no matter how long it takes me, as long as I don't stop, I WILL GET THERE!!! If I give up now, I'm guaranteed to fail, but if I just keep on keepin' on', eventually, I have to lose all this weight! So that's what I'm going to do...JUST KEEP ON GOING!:)